Lydia Grace

Lydia Grace
Our first child, Lydia Grace

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Snips and Snails and Puppy Dog Tails

And we have a baby boy!
(with 95% certainty, I should say) A girl and a boy. Pretty perfect. I knew it was a boy. Just like I knew Lydia was a girl. Good intuition: two out of two.

Today was my perinatologist appointment at 13 weeks. It went very well. A DVD of the entire sonogram was recorded (30 minutes) and we have many pictures from the sono. Everything is developing normally...10 fingers accounted for, good heartbeat and heart formation, brain and spine and limbs look good (hmmmm....I feel like I was saying this just a few months ago about our other child...).  
The perinatologist also recommended the anticoagulant daily injections. We just need to figure out how to pay for it. She said she is more concerned not only because of Lydia's stillbirth, but also because I have two bad copies of MTHFR that coupled with low Protein S has greater potential for blood clotting problems.

I feel guilty for not being more excited. With each doctor's appointment I feel more relief than excitement. When I was pregnant with Lydia, each doctor's appointment, the sonograms, every time we'd hear her heartbeat, I was excited. Now I breathe a sigh of relief. And hold my breath for the next appointment. I am an anxious person. Add experience with that and these positive reports from the doctors are wonderful to hear, but do not alleviate my anxiety and concern. Every single one of Lydia's appointments went well. We had no signs of problems. Two weeks before she was stillborn, everything looked great.

I'm not saying I am not thankful each time. I am very thankful nothing is wrong with the baby; that the only problem identified is a problem with me, not him. I am grateful he is growing healthy and we are not having any serious complications. Thank You, Lord.

Wow, a boy! 
And how I miss my baby girl! 


  1. Congrats! I just have to say friend went in at 16 weeks and they thought boy as well. I saw the pics and there definitly was something However, at 20 weeks there was nothing hanging anymore and they had a girl!
    May God continue to bless your pregnancy!

  2. We are full of excitement and praise with every update! Thanks for sharing the pictures of your little one! We love you ALL so much!!!

  3. Haha..that's pretty funny! Well, I won't be completely set on this one being a boy, but two people checked out my sono (not knowing what gender the other guessed) and both said boy. The peri also pointed out to us the beginning formation of the testis. Could be wrong, but she said she was more certain than usual. : )