Yesterday I needed to go up to the hospital, to the women's center. I was not thinking about the implications of where I was going until I saw the front of the building. I began to sob. I parked my car, sat in it, and cried. I had not been there since the day of Lydia's birth.
I had such a strong, unexpected emotional reaction. It was like reliving those memories. Walking into the building and down the hall was challenging. Once I arrived in the labor & delivery area, everything seemed unfamiliar. The locked double doors leading into the area were something I do not recall seeing. The hallways were hallways I'd never seen before. I did not recognize the nurse's station. It was a strange experience. Walking out the front doors after the visit brought up painful memories of the day I left without Lydia. Rough morning.
The 1st part of this breaks my heart! Sorry you had to go through all that again and worse alone.
ReplyDeleteThe 2nd part breaks my heart too! Have you tried going through the assistant program? Most pharm comp have these. Call or email me if you have questions I can help on this if you want!
It is hard to go back...even recently seeing a mom pulling up on a wheelchair to go home with her baby was heartbreaking for me. I hope that there is a discount for the meds!!! That is crazy! Even my infertility meds didn't mount up to that much!
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