I haven't written here in some time. I was thinking earlier today how it has almost been two years. Two years. It does not seem possible.
On Easter Sunday my husband, son and I went to Lydia's grave and found someone had placed an Easter egg on a stand at the head of her stone. It was a sweet, unexpected and intriguing gesture. Who put it there, we have no idea. It pleased me to see it. It is hard to think about not having her when I am consumed with carrying for Isaiah. I miss her more and less at the same time. I think I am still angry she isn't here. And only those who have or are walking this road understand.
I miss attending M.E.N.D. meetings. I have not gone to one since around this time last year, I believe. Isaiah would now be fine without me for a couple hours, but my husband's busy schedule prevents my attendance to any support group. Support. It is what I need right now and feel in great lack.
***edited*** Thanks for the responses!
Hi Rachel! My name is Lisa Hart. I went to school with Drew. I've followed your story with your daughter and the rest of your new little family for quite some time now. I do not have any childern of my own, but I can definitely relate to the part of your blog that talks about being the connector person. I think that people like us were put here to make everyone else remember to keep in touch with the rest of the world, and not get so caught up in themselves, and their own lives. It does get discouraging when there are lack of replies, but we just have to keep doing it. If we stop then who will keep the world connected? I love people, and I would love to get to know you more if you wouldn't mind. :o) I looked for you on facebook, and wasn't able to locate your profile anymore. So I'm leaving you my email. Email me if you wouldn't mind having a modern day pen pal of sorts. I like to talk about anything and everything, and can go on for hours. Hope I hear from you! <3 lchart@live.com
ReplyDeleteI saw the picture of the gift left for Lydia....and as I said amazing how the Lord continues to leave bread crumbs showing we are not forsaken or forgotten ....and how he uses people to leave the trail sometimes.....Love you all!
ReplyDeleteI know... I miss having a daughter even though my son brings me so much joy and healing. Having a mother daughter relationship is another special relationship that cannot be replaced.
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